I am lost.
I do not fit in anywhere.
I am so alone.
things I want to tell you all but I cannot, these things that hurt me deep in my soul, my fears keep me from telling you. I trully hate my life right now.
I need Hashem, but I feel he is so far away. I am in deep pain, and I think it might be best if I leave this board, I don't want to be a burden on anyone and I feel I am hopeless to ever recover from this addiction, and these things that I want to tell you, I am sure that if I told you all of you would reject me :'(