What if the "next life" does not begin after death? What if it begins while you are still alive? What if your "next life" is the life of your children? What if the "Hell" is when you are 70, and your oldest son is alcoholic, an your youngest daughter is on drugs? What if the Hell is to see it and understand that YOU anf YOUR addiction are responsible for this and there is nothing you CAN do about it? What if the "HEAVEN" is to see your children grow happily and to know that it's because YOU did the steps and was desperate for recovery? I don't want to wait and see! God, help me to see it NOW! Help me to see that MY next life is the life of MY CHILDREN!