Reb yedidah, thanks for the compliment, yes I b"h made progress, almost all of it is credit for the GYE community, maybe a little bit I owe myself a thanks, its no easy work, but hey easy work is not fun work, so yes it is a challenge, but guys what are we here for if not for that, as a friend I will spill the secret out to u, I did work a bit the 12 steps, mainly the 1st 3 of them, and I had some really gr8 guys here on GYE giving me chizak all the time, + I spent hours of hours listening to CD's from my favorite Speakers , which includes rabbi Waxman, Rabbi Wolfson, Rabbi Rubin, they are all so powerful that they could even pull me out, well maybe u like someone else, 1st figure out what is holding u back from making the 1st step to get close to hashem, see where u r weak, might be ur faith cord has been cut off or out of service or just plugged in the opposite way, I went for therapy, turned myself upside down, cried to hashem many times over the past 9 months like never b4, reinforced my connection with our beloved creator, learned musar, spent hours on GYE's bench gave chizak for guys (btw that's 1 of the best ways to get chizak) do me a favor make that 1 baby step but as rabbi waxman says it, the chazal call it a door like. The opening of needle, got some blood work done recently? Well, u know what I mean its pretty sharp that's how that 1st step gota be so it can actually cut all the bad layers of filth off to let hashem res t in u, I know u want and I also know that u will succeed, just a matter of time, so why not today, hashem is waiting to hear from u, ur life will be much more meaningful in recovery believe me bro!
just a quick check in . B.H. bli eyan harah,sober today. Yesterday, fell by reading errotic stuff on Google with "safe" setting,ended up with m*. Thanks everyone for the chizuk. have a great Shabbos.
