HI, everyone!
iam a 18 year old boy,
i'm addicted and trapped in this addiction,
​I was already at a therapist, but that didn't help me, i contact already people,
and I did everything and ruined my life!!!I have girlfriends and all these kinds of things, and my problem is that I don't even want to drop them, cuz I like it, but I know it's wrong,

Maybe give a little more details so people can know how to help

Welcome to the forum! Congrats on the first day of the rest of your life!

Check out the book Battle of the Generation. 

Stick around a bit and you will realize there are many other tayere yidden who go through similar challenges like you. And there are many ways to work on getting your life to be in a better place. 

If you went to a therapist and it did not help, you either need more time, or need to go to someone else. 

What ruined your life, talking to people, or doing bad things?

So you want to stop  but are not motivated enough to leave the pleasure you are experiencing? Why do you want to stop,  because it is bad and wrong,  or because it's ruining your life, or something else? Do you have an idea of a kosher outlet to keep you busy with and out of trouble?

With love, frank.lee

what kind of info?

i dont know if someone else will help, cuz at the and of the game.... i love it,
and the give me ways not to think..... but u know how it goes...
i need someone should kill the whole תאוה from me!!!!!!!

And my kid wants unicorns to be real:) At the end of the day, this is your test and YOU can succeed. Hashem wouldnt have given it to you otherwise. Yes, I loved porn, yes it was hard, yes i am clean. 
But at the end of the day it i up to you. Do you want to go down that road? Where do you think it will lead? Is that a future you want for yourself or your family?
Reach out to Hashem Help Me. I would say with what your describing you need to speak to someone, and he is amazing!

Hey! Impressive your on GYE to be honest, major respect for that. I can completely relate with you as I went off the derech in highschool and bh I found my way back and now I work with kids in that field.(I'm 23 btw, so it wasn't that long ago that I was in your position). When you say that you "know" it's wrong, what do u mean by that? Is it just you feeling the "disappointment" that others seemingly have over you for the things your doing, or do you actually genuinely feel that what your doing is wrong and then you must answer the question of why is it wrong and it better not be "cause Hashem said so", you have to go deeper than that and find a reason that resonates with you as to why Hashem said that. You also can't just tackle this without beginning to build your relationship with Hashem and begin to get enjoyment from that connection, as Rav Itche Myer Morgenstern Shlita says, everyone needs pleasure, it's how Hashem made us, it's up to you to search out and find where you can get pleasure in yiddeshkeit. You can message me if you'd like more info on things. Best of luck, your on an incredible journey and ik you'll find your path to your true happy self, I've seen it happen over and over again with guys in the same position as you and even worse tbh. 

eliklein wrote:

not personal info, but what "everything" means to one person might mean something else to somebody else

so i should write every dirty thing i did ברחל בתך הקטנה?

No prbably he is referring to a general idea of the sequence of events that brought you to this point. Also, what are your motivations now, what are you doing now, meaning in yeshiva working, nothing...., and in general what are your tests now? 

iam in yeshivah, and iam also working
and chilling around with friends

No not at all, and i guess i was misunderstood. So lets scratch all of that.

anyhow, welcome to the gye party!!! Definitely stick around and be prepared to change in ways you never thought possible. 
take some time to read other other threads and reach out to someone. I would suggest hashemhelpme you can reach him on this site or email him

i emailed him, i am waiting for his response......

Do you want to stop doing what you’re doing? If yes, why? 
Have you tried? What worked and what hasn’t worked ? 
Wishing that someone could wave a wand and remove all תאוה is not a desire to stop, methinks. It’s more of a theoretical wish. What is your desire ? 

it takes away time,
and it can ruin the life......
and i tried, and basically nothing worked.......