OK, I haven't posted in a bit for lack of time and privacy.
I do want to share that for me, tefillah Zaaka was very powerful over Yom Kippur and I kept returning to it throughout the day to keep myself focused. I would highly suggest reading it in English, if you cannot understand the orig., to get some inspiration or just an idea of how to do teshuva on this topic.
I really do have a lot to reply to and your posts have been encouraging. It does feel good to "have someone in my corner", even if it is in a virtual space. I also want to state that whether or not I agree with any post, I sincerely appreciate constructive criticism and/or observations, so don't be shy and keep them coming.
Thank you
