Yesterday at 2:00 a.m.

My mother has a hall of residence (student dormitory)

I was sleeping when my mother woke me up at 2:00 a.m. she received a call from a girl sleeping in the last story, the girl said that somebody was trying to enter her room through the window. I went upstairs with my mom, and noticed that the room of one of the residents (male) was open and empty, he wasn´t in his room.

We went directly to the girl’s room and talked with here, she said that someone was trying to open here window and enter here room. The only access to her window was through the bathroom, so I entered the bathroom, and saw the window was open. When I was about to close the window I saw a guy dressing only his underwear, standing in the shower!!! I GOT THE FRIGHT OF MY LIFE!

It was the guy whose room was open and empty; it was just so shocking for us. He couldn´t say anything, we just caught him in a terrible moment, we just couldn´t imagine what he was trying to do with this girl.

I´m not entering in more details in what happened after, but I´m feeling just so sad for this guy, because I TRUELLY KNOW how it feels not having control of what you’re doing when acting out, perhaps I haven´t gone so far as he went (trying physical abuse), but it made me think: "HOW FAR AM I FROM ACTING LIKE HIM????" he looked like a normal guy like ME!! When I told him to go back to his room I saw through his eyes like someone totally controlled by his yetzer hara asking for help, he was so ashamed I just feel sad for him.

I am now thinking that he and me are not that different, we both struggle with a hard addiction in different ways, different levels, who knows!
But what I know is that watching myself in his place acting out like that and being caught like that, just gave me a lot of strength and fear of what I´m really facing with this addiction!
P.S. My mom talked with this guy mom and she was totally devastated, he obviously has to leave. Just imagined my mother in the same situation for a while, and got a lot of strength to get out of this now with help from G-d!!

(Probably not the best English, I’m a Spanish speaker)