Nat wrote on 04 Sep 2009 05:51:
I am going through 9 months of cheshbonot like like tax stuff and I am doing well but the pressure( I lost some material etc) is so great and I feared doing this thats why i pushed it off....
I can't seem to control myself its just seconds to the fall
HELP!!!!!!!
Whoa! Hang in there buddy!
If I can share a similar situation with you; earlier this week my company was hit by some hidden fees that resulted because of poor invoicing of one of our partners. As the CEO, where all financial responsibility falls on my shoulders, I was forced to somehow find tens of thousands of dollars - money that I do not have. I too was faced with a similar stress, and began searching for an outlet to release all of my built up tension.
I did my utmost to find a healthy means to let out some tension, and I was saved from diving into a fall. Try to relax and have a little faith. I learned a quick lesson of bitochon, when as soon as I relaxed I got a phonecall from one of the company's investors saying that he was ready to make a deposit containing the full amount.
Break out of it! Let go and let G-d!
2B
P.S: Part of what helped me get past this, was the recognition that my releasing the tension won't fix the problem anyways. Somehow I'd have to come up with the money. Instead of later facing 2 pressures, a. the pressure of the financial burden, and b. the added pressure caused by the fall, I preferred to face the financial difficulty and seek out a way to
solve the problem. Masturbation is not part of problem solving.