Shmilu,

When we feed our lust we are like babies who only think about ourselves. It's almost Rosh HaShana and time to grow up.

Get off the computer and go for a walk, NOW!

Shmilu

If momos on your case you'd better tell the YH to start running. Momo doesn't give up (ask uri). Tell the YH not to mess..

what would you tell us if we asked you what to do?

read uri's Hashem poem. or any of his songs. that's what helps me.

Me3 wrote on 13 Sep 2009 15:06:


LOL.

Shmilu, if I'm hard on you it's because you're worth it!

letakain21 wrote on 13 Sep 2009 15:07:


For me, the best advice is "GOT DC". No, I am not talking about Duvid Chaim. It stands for "Get Off The Damn Computer!" (and go for a walk).

K, guys. Going to take a nap now and we'll hopefully wake up in a better state of mind.
Have me in your prayers.
Thanks to all.

momo i told u before chill with the baby talk!
shmilu youre on your own lag baomer!!!!!
the fire of kedusha is blazing!!!!!
keep fanning it!!
we love you no matter what tzaddik

letakain posts like those make me smile so wide.thank you.

Uri wrote on 13 Sep 2009 15:13:

thank YOU! you have no idea how dog-eared that poem is getting in my secret stash of GYE ammunition!

dear friends,

just a suggestion,
how about if we set times, when each person is available to be on guard, so that if someone has an emergency call we can be of help? if each person can donate a time it would be great. prob. during the most common times in each time zone would be great. ie. evening time in each time zone... 

Here's a man with vision. My kind of guy.

One day, I dream that GYE will have a whole network of hotlines, 24 hours a day, for people to call in and get chizuk and talk it out, anywhere in the world. This is just one of the things we plan to do when we find that "big donor".  :D

Guard,
You can count on me bankrolling such an operation once my financial stature reaches a level that would allow it. The only things standing in our way are your prayers... 

hey. yeah, so im almost a full 30 days...
and ive had enough in so many ways...
i just slipped a couple of times,
and as i started writing this a friend called with a quick question...,
i forced myslef to answer the phone and he asked if im ok,
yes i lied, did i just wake you up? no...,
ok, not convinced he said, so he quickly asked the question
and said go back to sleep

PLEASE WAKE ME UP!!! :'( :'( :'(
over at my thread...

HELP!!

I just pulled myself back from the edge of the cliff again, for the second time this week.

I think I'll fall if I approach the edge again.

I usually fall on Sundays. However, in honor of R"H, I didn't fall Sunday.
I didn't fall Monday.
I didn't fall Tuesday.

But I've been unable to stop myself from surfing on the internet, not p*rn, but photos of women that stir the coals.

I say to myself, only for today, don't fall. But, as you all know, it's very, very hard.

Not only do I have stress at work.
Not only do I have stress about R"H.
Not only do I work in computers in a boring job with internet one click away.
But, I'm in the middle of the nidda period. One week gone, one week left.

I think the last time I didn't fall during a nidda period was 5 months ago.

I say, this time I'll make it through, for the sake of R"H and the aseret yamei teshuva.

I don't know how many days since I last fell, since I stopped keeping track (it put too much pressure on me), but I estimate 15 days.

I want so badly to last and stay clean at least until Y"K.

Can I do it?

I don't know.

Writing helps, but chizuk will help more.

I have to add, this is so crazy. When I was on the edge of the cliff, literally looking down and about to jump off (figuratively of course), I heard Guard's voice (not his real voice which is a secret, but a G-d like voice, kind of like in the movie the 10 commandments but without the echo, quoting Guard) telling me "Say to yourself that you will not do it no matter what! Your *** won't fall off!" I felt like a lunatic, I was having a conversation back and forth in my mind "Just do it, you'll feel better" "No! I will feel so badly afterward and get depressed. It's almost R"H." and back and forth, until I just said "No" and walked away from the cliff.

Momo! Can you do it?
Of course you can do it!
You want to do it, you said it yourself!
Can you go for a walk?
I hear it works wonders !
What about reading Uri's thread from the last week or so?
What about calling him to wish him a refuah shelaima?
Reading your thread from the last week or so?

Momo?
Can you check in again soon?...