The reason I would like to avoid the 'addict' label is because if I am an addict, it involves 10 times more work and a lifelong commitment. I do realize that this requires tremendous work and a lifelong commitment, but I am still in the early stages of self denial etc.... hey its day 6!
I hear you loud and clear - and remember the same feelings. But let me tell you that you are making a bit of a funny mistake, chaver. Not facing it and doing the lifelong work is only a guarantee of lifelong work of a different kind: i.e. hiding, lying, and managing two lives while struggling for all the normal stuff (family, job, yiddishkeit, money, friends) that we all expect life owes us...
Once you find out that you are hooked, there are only two choices: it's either a program of recovery or a program of garbage for us. We are on a path of lifelong hard work, either way!
No wonder the drinkers drink so much. They want to drown themselves rather than face the fact that there ain't no easy way out.
Really, once we go to meetings, or whatever we become a part of, and begin recovery, we all find out that life isn't that bad... in fact, it's nice... wait, it's interesting and sometimes exciting... hold on there - it's awesome!
Well... everything takes time.
Just don't rush. You'll miss half the fun! :-)