Thursday, 09 February 2012

Making the Connection

by Postal (See all authors)

Looking back at the times that I've fallen (or felt a very strong pull towards falling), I had always been in a very uneasy state of mind. Maybe I was restless, or irritable, or discontent. Maybe I was feeling tired, stressed out, lonely, angry, or anxious. Or maybe it was something else. Whatever it was, I wasn't in a great spiritual/mental state.

Why is it important to make this connect? I don't know about you, but for me, I had always used lusting/acting-out to ESCAPE from these emotional states that I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE OR DEAL WITH PROPERLY. Lusting/Acting-out helped me deal with these emotions UNTIL I CAME BACK TO REALITY. And after over a decade of mentally training myself to go directly and immediately towards my "fix" the minute I feel this way, it has become second nature.

It's important for me to make this connection because if I find myself in such an uneasy mental/spiritual state, I know that it won't be long before my mind will instinctively go to the only medicine it knows will help ease the pain: Lusting/Acting Out.

Therefore, it's important to be mindful and identify when one is in such a state of mind and what one is actually feeling. And instead of instinctively going towards our drug of choice (Lust), we should try dealing with these emotions constructively and head-on as a normal non-addict would. Lusting and acting out won't cure whatever is bothering us, it's only a escape.

Hopefully this may help someone in dealing with this addiction.