It's been hard recently. My wife and I have been "off" for about six weeks due to a change in medication, and it's been hard. I stumbled with computer stuff once or twice but I picked myself up and started again. I find it's about keeping to my own rules. If I am meikel, than - boy, oh boy - is it a kulah sh'osi lidei Chumrah!

Anyway, today after Mincha, as I walked back to the office, I was tired and stressed. I knew I was gonna fall. I just knew it. So I lifted my eyes to Hashem and tried to see the world as He sees it. I tried to experience my Yiddishkeit more than just live through it.

Maybe it was that, maybe coincidence, but I have been so busy all afternoon, I have had less than a minute to myself. I am stealing these few seconds to write this as I rush to another thing.

My day is never like this.

I don't know if it's Hashgocha or not (please don't write in trying to convince me it is - it's a Sugya :-) ) but I sure am grateful to Hashem!!!

Please read what I write here with the understanding that it is meant with great respect - respect that you all deserve. I feel this is important to be written here.

Do you have a problem with obsessive and compulsive porn use? Have you seriously tried the tools on GYE and feel that you are not getting better? Maybe it’s time to consider joining a 12-Step program.

Porn Anonymous (PA)
If you’re compulsively acting-out with pornography and masturbation we suggest you explore joining Porn Anonymous (PA). If you need help deciding whether to join PA, call Michael at 347-699-2368, or email help@pornanonymous.org to schedule a time to talk. For more information visit pornanonymous.org (Hebrew: p-a.org.il / Yiddish: pa-yid.org).

Sexaholics Anonymous (SA)
If your compulsive acting-out has progressed beyond the screen (with other people, paid sexual services, etc.) we suggest you explore joining Sexaholics Anonymous (SA). To figure out if SA is for you, call Dov at 917-414-8205, or email Dov at dov@guardyoureyes.org to schedule a time to talk. For more information visit www.sa.org.