Good Advice on Staying Alive
 
 
  Breaking Free Chizuk #1356  
 
 
In Today's Issue
   
Image of the Day: Don't stay down!
Sayings: The Insanity of Addiction
Editor’s Note
Personal Stories: Six Recovery Realizations
Practical Tips: 7 ways to deal with negative thoughts
 
 
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Image of the Day
 
Don't stay down!
 
Don't stay down!
Sayings
 
In our addiction, "in order to be free of it, we have to do it."
- The White Book of SA.
 
Editor’s Note

When the urge to act out hits us, we feel that we will die if don't act on it. Truly insane - the only way to be free of it (the urge) is to do it, which only makes us want to do it again.

But here is what Chaim* wrote to us:

Chaim wrote: 

"I am still restless and want to act out. But my body will not explode if I don't, and I am going to feel bad if I act out - so I might as well have this "bad" feeling! This is the same "bad" feeling that I have when I'm lifting weights: it's "bad" only because it hurts my body, but it gives a great feeling from working out. I'm working out right now, and I should enjoy this feeling of NOT giving in, because it's building my spirituality and resilience muscles.

"The only difference between this and working out is that working out entails putting down the bar for breaks and rest periods. Here, however, even though I most likely will fall again sometime, I'm not going to take a break from this wonderful workout that never ends, and it will become more natural (like breathing workouts for people recovering from a bed-ridden illness).

"I just need to commit to break this thing and internalize all that I learn. I will win!!!"

Way to go, Chaim! We're rooting for you! 

 

 

Personal Stories
 
Six Recovery Realizations
 
By No Yiush

Dear GYE,

I am 32 years old, and this struggle has brought me to places in the last few years that I do not want to mention. I WAS FIGHTING EVERYDAY, ASKING MYSELF “AM I NORMAL OR NOT?”

But B"H, thanks to GuardYourEyes, I am almost 5 months clean today. A few weeks into my 90 days my urge was huge. I tried calling everybody on the planet, but had no success, so I just cried to Hashem and He helped me.

I want to share what has changed in my thinking during the last few months since I was introduced to your site.

1) Firstly, Dov (a GYE moderator) knocked some sense into me and helped me realize that I was nuts :-) I was always busy fighting, asking myself if I AM ADDICITED OR NOT and that did not allow me to get honest with myself. I learned that whether I call it “addiction” or call it “Yetzer Hara,” one thing is for sure, I am messed up in the head and not everybody is like this.

2) I don’t look forward to dry spells, where things are just calm, and I forget what I am capable of doing. This summer is the first summer in my life that I brought Hashem into my struggle; when times were tough, I just prayed to Hashem to remove this from me. I did not go in to a frenzy and look for that cozy feeling of being all clean and holy, I faced my struggles head on and was not afraid to look them in the eye and say, “my body wants this but this is not good for me. Hashem please remove this from me.”

3) I also realized that these struggles stem from being a selfish person: I am willing to destroy myself and my family just so that I can have a good time. I developed a mindset that women are my toys. For G-d’s sake, they all have their own husbands! What shaychus do I have with someone else’s wife?! I also learned to bless the pretty woman in the street and not feel resentful about her personally. I have to hate immorality but not hate the actual person.

4) I am content with being a person who has these struggles for the rest of my life. WHY? because it's not about MY WILL, I do HASHEM'S will - and if He wants this for me, then this is what’s good for me.

5) I can never rest on my laurels. I always have to remind myself what I am capable of doing so I don’t get caught off-guard.

6) This year on Rosh Hashanah, I did not say that this year I will not do these things anymore. Instead, I said that I WILL BRING HASHEM IN TO MY STRUGGLES AND NOT FIGHT THEM MYSELF ANYMORE, BECAUSE I CAN’T FIGHT!!!

May this year be the year that we start doing Hashem’s Will and not our will!!!

Thanks for everything you do.

Practical Tips
 
7 ways to deal with negative thoughts
 
By Patricia Harteneck, PhD.
 
By psychologytoday.com

Most of us spend a lot of time inside our own mind — worrying about the future, replaying events in the past, and generally focusing on the parts of life that leave us dissatisfied. While common, negative or unwanted thoughts can prevent you from enjoying experiences, distract you from focusing on what's important, and drain your energy. They can also make you feel anxious and depressed.

The good news is that with dedicated practice, you can replace negative thinking patterns with thoughts that actually help. This can make a huge difference in your day-to-day happiness and comfort.

Try these 7 ways to manage (and decrease) your negative thoughts:

1. Recognize thought distortions. Our minds have clever and persistent ways of convincing us of something that isn't really true. These inaccurate thoughts reinforce negative thinking. If you can recognize them, you can learn to challenge them. Here are four common thought distortions:

  • Black and white thinking. Seeing everything as one way or another, without any in between.
  • Personalizing. Assuming you are to blame for anything that goes wrong, like thinking someone did not smile at you because you did something to upset her. (It's more likely that person is having a hard day and her mood had nothing to do with you.)
  • Filter thinking. Choosing to see only the negative side of a situation.
  • Catastrophizing. Assuming the worst possible outcome is going to happen.

 

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If you’re compulsively acting-out with pornography and masturbation we suggest you explore joining Porn Anonymous (PA). If you need help deciding whether to join PA, call Michael at 347-699-2368, or email help@pornanonymous.org to schedule a time to talk. For more information visit pornanonymous.org (Hebrew: p-a.org.il / Yiddish: pa-yid.org).

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If your compulsive acting-out has progressed beyond the screen (with other people, paid sexual services, etc.) we suggest you explore joining Sexaholics Anonymous (SA). To figure out if SA is for you, call Dov at 917-414-8205, or email Dov at dov@guardyoureyes.org to schedule a time to talk. For more information visit www.sa.org.

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