Friday, 05 May 2017

Living Life

by Cordnoy (See all authors)

I recommend Duvid Chaim's call to all (just started a new cycle!). That is, if you wanna learn how to live life. If you merely wanna figure out how to lock your zipper, don't bother; the call is all about living life.

On this topic, I'd like to paste an email I received from a fellow about 2 years ago who wrote:

Yesterday I went to speak to someone. I went armed with a little pocket-sized blue book, and a few papers of work that I had done. After a quick hug, we started getting down to work. 3 hours later, I walked out. A new man. It was nighttime here in eretz yisroel, but the sun was shining bright. My new life was just starting. I took a deep breath, smelled the flowers, and said "selicha" to the grey
striped cat that was blocking my path.

I was finished my own personal pesach-cleaning, now its time for me tt leave the slavery of mitzrayim and move on.

For all of you that still don't know what I'm talking about, yesterday, I went and did my 5th step. I have never felt a feeling like I did when I walked out of Duvid Chaim's apartment. I felt on top of the world, a free person. The people who I had resented for whatever reason, I now wanted to do something for them. At that moment, Hashem made a flower store appear in front of my eyes, I went in and bought something for my wife. No expectations and for nothing in return, just because I love her. For the first time in our life together, she appreciated a romantic gesture. And it was a red rose no less, something she always told me she hated (they didn't have anything else). Its now on display on our dresser.

Since I walked out of that apartment, every thought, every sight and every action has been preceded by a thought "am I doing this looking through the right pair of glasses?"

I saw the sky grey, I saw my life black and I saw my future bleak, all for one reason: I was wearing dark-sunglasses. Duvid Chaim spent 3 hours ripping those glasses off my face, and putting on a new pair of glasses. This morning, the sky was a beautiful blue, my life is amazing, and right now (here's a biggie), I don't care about my future.

Looking past at my previous posts, I can thank Hashem for sending me to do the 5th step at the exact time that I needed it. I also davened for one thing this morning, "Please keep me thinking along these lines, so that I may better serve you and be a pleasure to be around".

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.