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Thank you]]> On the Way to 90-Days Wed, 19 Jun 2019 03:33:59 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341805-Day-by-day#341805 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341739-We-Got-This---My-90-Day-Diary#341739 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341739-We-Got-This---My-90-Day-Diary#341739
Today I am ending Day 2 of my journey. I fell on Monday night (Motzei Chag) and Tuesday morning as a continuation of that binge.
I have identified the triggers - I was feeling sad about myself, about my body image. I felt fat and had a bad workout session after the holiday and I felt hopeless about my personal fitness and health goals. That is a classic trigger to fall for me.
The trigger led to a fall because there was an opportunity in my filter situation - I have my internet basically turn off on my computer around 11pm, which is when I usually try to go to sleep, and usually after that time I would fall in the past. However, that filter was turned off on my phone from the week before, because I was out late and needed to use the Uber app to get home, and I never turned it back on. So I used my phone to look up stuff to make me feel better. I can't even remember the rationale in my head that led me there. It never makes sense afterwards anyway. But I've fixed that loophole - I've now set the filter to just block the browser on my phone, but to allow the apps I would potentially need, so that I won't have to turn it off.

Yet, the Covenant Eyes system caught my behavior. This morning, I was charged $100 for the fall. This I hope will be the incentive and motivation to not use that avenue to look things up again. I will get caught. And I will pay for it.

So I'm feeling optimistic about the future. I was at Day 28 before Monday's fall. Last time I got to Day 50. I think I can do it. I'll keep you (Diary?) updated]]> On the Way to 90-Days Fri, 14 Jun 2019 02:50:20 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341739-We-Got-This---My-90-Day-Diary#341739 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341709-The-french-who-wants-to-get-out-of-the-trench#341709 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341709-The-french-who-wants-to-get-out-of-the-trench#341709

First of all : about anger, frustration, stress... All sentiments like these, are my main objectives for now.
Because I see clearly, after the analyse of my last falls, and a continue observation of myself ( I am writing it into an agenda, trying to do it on a daily basis) that they are the main triggers to my falls.

And I know well that I always want to control everything, and I am not a good person to frequent when this is not the case... As my wife tells me often

I need to make a very change in this topic, in my attitude in life, and to learn to let the things to the others, especially to Hachem, and to take the events like they come. And to see the good in everything.

It will be a long and hard work but it is VITAL.

So, in summary, my program that I want to do :
- FHT method of Rav Fanger.
- Positive thinking
- Write every evening my 3 gratitudes of the day, my glitches, what I have done to the program
- Working in every daily situation to see it in a positive way
- And to share with my partner by phone the ups and the downs, on a weekly basis (at least)

And by side, the others tools : filters, emergency tools if there is an urge, etc]]> On the Way to 90-Days Wed, 12 Jun 2019 07:58:35 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341709-The-french-who-wants-to-get-out-of-the-trench#341709 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341614-900-Days#341614 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341614-900-Days#341614 Thanks to all those here who have been a part of this journey.
It works if you work it.]]> On the Way to 90-Days Tue, 04 Jun 2019 04:06:52 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341614-900-Days#341614 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341493-Withdrawal-symptoms-on-90-day-challenge#341493 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341493-Withdrawal-symptoms-on-90-day-challenge#341493 ? Do they often occur also  with people who acted out every few weeks, prior to  starting the challenge?
I am also looking for someone or a few people to check in with  each day  so i can feel more accountable ... thanks

Thanks]]> On the Way to 90-Days Tue, 28 May 2019 06:37:01 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341493-Withdrawal-symptoms-on-90-day-challenge#341493 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341350-Looking-for-some-ideas#341350 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341350-Looking-for-some-ideas#341350 Still I had a question that maybe some of you will be able to enlighten me about.
Recently after my schedule changed and I found myself at home for most of the day I realized that I don't have drive to be productive like I used to have. I would much rather stay at home and see what's online (even if it's not inappropriate). I just don't know what I want to do with my life and I kind've feel like i'm sinking. I also feel disconnected many time from my feelings and from the world in general..
I also have had a lot of trouble in the past understanding the concept that we are in this world only to do hashem's will and to give ourselves over to him. I think that a person who gives himself fully over to g-d, although admirable, loses his own self if he is constantly thinking of hashem or other people and what's good for them only. How does altruism not cancel our own self? (sorry for the philosophy)
Can anyone identify? maybe give me some ideas?
Many thanks and we should all be successful iy"h]]> On the Way to 90-Days Tue, 21 May 2019 21:30:59 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/341350-Looking-for-some-ideas#341350