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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 25 Mar 2021 04:42 #366069

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Day four.

Got home a few hours ago. I’m totally knocked out. Trying to learn a bit and then head to bed.
Clean
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
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“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 25 Mar 2021 22:25 #366094

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I’m feeling overwhelmed with all the people around me. It’s like I’m an introvert or something...

Trying to stay busy and helpful, without much success. Just sitting here in my room with blasting music. Not being a productive person today...
To be fair I peeled like 10 apples till I cut myself...
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
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“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Last Edit: 25 Mar 2021 22:25 by OivedElokim.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 26 Mar 2021 00:11 #366098

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Just went on a half hour run. Was very refreshing. Gonna daven Mincha and prepare for בדיקת חמץ (and Pesach )
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 30 Mar 2021 02:21 #366137

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Day nine.

Wasn’t in a great mood over Yom tov. Felt a bit overwhelmed with my whole family around. A bit of a rowdy bunch...

I considered falling several times but I didn’t want to pay the price so I stayed clean.
Had a dream that I was watching a lot of porn last night. Woke up dry though...
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 30 Mar 2021 03:48 #366147

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OivedElokim wrote on 30 Mar 2021 02:21:
Had a dream that I was watching a lot of porn last night. Woke up dry though...

I had a similar dream...must be something in the Matzah this year 
Couldn't have been the wine...it was only 4 cups...
נאָך אַ שריפה ווערט מען רייַך - After a fire one becomes wealthy.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 30 Mar 2021 19:01 #366176

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Got up early today.
Learned my daily shiurim.
Davened with a minyan.
Went on a run.
A bit bored now, feeling mildly depressed...
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 01 Apr 2021 05:14 #366232

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Day eleven

The depression isn’t going anywhere.
Seems like I’m going to have to deal with it my whole life. A pretty dismal prospect. Not looking forward to life...
Good night
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 01 Apr 2021 07:00 #366235

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OivedElokim wrote on 01 Apr 2021 05:14:
Day eleven

The depression isn’t going anywhere.
Seems like I’m going to have to deal with it my whole life. A pretty dismal prospect. Not looking forward to life...
Good night

The good news is that you only feel like this while you are depressed, the rest of your life you will be fine  .

In all seriousness, I really relate to the siblings coming will all their kids and taking over my house thing. I am seventh of a large family and my teen years were filled with coming home for Yom Tov to a house full of little (and not so little) kids running around and even going through my stuff. I would find all my precious things strewn all over the house. 

Until....

I showed one of my nephews a BB bun that I had... He thought it was a real one. I told him that if he dares touch a thing, or even tell his parents...

But they still pour grape juice all over the table, and still throw my silver becher on the floor when ever they get a chance. They still think it's funny to throw salad at each other (with terrible aim so it usually ends up on my freshly pressed pants) and still eat up all the cake before I get a chance to taste it.

I am just waiting for my kids to get a little older, they are probably going to be the same  . 
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 02 Apr 2021 23:44 #366320

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Day twelve 

Feeling better emotionally then I have been the whole week. Better times lie ahead.

For the first seven days of Passover, we celebrate the spark of freedom within us.

On the eighth day, we celebrate that at any moment, we will break free.
(Chabad.org)

For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 02:15 #366326

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Day fifteen 
My issue is that I have terrible self esteem. I think that I am a fundamentally bad, incompetent and useless person.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 04:19 #366329

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OivedElokim wrote on 05 Apr 2021 02:15:
Day fifteen 
My issue is that I have terrible self esteem. I think that I am a fundamentally bad, incompetent and useless person.

Hey your taking my lines.
My Thread:The Road To Being Honest With Myself (and others:)

I'm not a slow learner, I'm just quick to forget" - Eli Nash

A bit of honesty and less over confidence might help me - Imperfection

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 05:31 #366331

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OivedElokim wrote on 05 Apr 2021 02:15:
Day fifteen 
My issue is that I have terrible self esteem. I think that I am a fundamentally bad, incompetent and useless person.

Welcome to the club.
Check out My thread

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 06:41 #366333

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Hakolhevel wrote on 05 Apr 2021 04:19:

OivedElokim wrote on 05 Apr 2021 02:15:
Day fifteen 
My issue is that I have terrible self esteem. I think that I am a fundamentally bad, incompetent and useless person.

Hey your taking my lines.

Twerski's book "life's too short" helped me.
My Thread:The Road To Being Honest With Myself (and others:)

I'm not a slow learner, I'm just quick to forget" - Eli Nash

A bit of honesty and less over confidence might help me - Imperfection

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 07:03 #366334

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Slipped up. My knas contract stopped me from going all out and masturbating
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Apr 2021 08:42 #366337

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Hakolhevel wrote on 05 Apr 2021 06:41:

Hakolhevel wrote on 05 Apr 2021 04:19:

OivedElokim wrote on 05 Apr 2021 02:15:
Day fifteen 
My issue is that I have terrible self esteem. I think that I am a fundamentally bad, incompetent and useless person.

Hey your taking my lines.

Twerski's book "life's too short" helped me.

I would also recommend reading some books by Brene Brown. Daring Greatly and The Gifts of Imperfection were really eye opening.
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