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This is going to be the time I get to 90!
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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 30 Jul 2019 14:59 #342607

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Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:32:
Day0

Really getting harder for me to come on here and post my falls...It says Sheva Yipol Tzadik V'kom and I'm getting close to the seventh time already and still not near being a tzadik….


Yes it can feel demeaning and uncomfortable to keep posting about your falls.  But it is important to stay connected to the GYE chevra now.  Right now you are just going through a rough patch.  This will pass.  Things will get better. 

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 30 Jul 2019 15:22 #342608

Reb yid sorry to hear about your fall, definitely stay connected as Dave mentioned however things will only get better if you take bigger steps to get to the root of the problem, whether it's joining phone calls, live meetings or therapy, just to get a pic of why your turning to this drug, why you keep needing that escape etc.

As dov will say "a pretty woman isn't lust, I'm just using her to feed my lust"

Just my opinion on what is helping me, feel free to disagree.
Feel free to pm me, currently a lucky choson which merited to have discovered gye 1.5 years ago which BH totally changed my life from one extreme to the other!

הנותן עיניו במה שאינו שלו, מה שמבקש לא נותנים לו, ומה שבידו נוטלים ממנה

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 31 Jul 2019 03:13 #342613

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My new goal is 1 day...

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 31 Jul 2019 21:57 #342630

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Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:34:
Also, I got a filter B''h to help with the fight, but then another avenue just came up that I will struggle with. I promised if I look then I will lose $50.

I've spent so much money threatening myself. Actually I probably didn't loose that much since I didn't always have the guts to pay up...

good luck on the new challenge. My personal moto that I (TRY!!!) to keep is, keep on going & keep on trying, but don't keep on doing the same old thing and hoping for different results.
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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 02 Aug 2019 02:58 #342648

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I am finishing up Day 2!!!!

Feeling a bit better now...I need to seriously get back on a 90 Day count.

I know when I get back to 90+ Days I will be even stronger than the last itme I got up there. Also, I know that the urges are way "less" and are more manageable from there....Not that the y''h doesn't try even harder, because he definitely does...But I felt like I had stronger clarity that I didn't want to lust after I was clean for 90, 150, 200 etc days.

I REALLY REALLY want to get back there!!!

Also, I have some stresses in my life that makes me want to act out instead of being productive...I have to try and overcome that....

Thanks for listening GYE and I love the feedback on my last post!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 02 Aug 2019 14:02 #342660

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When an urge comes, break down things into 5 minute blocks.
Say to yourself, I will do an activity for the next 5 minutes to take my mind off the urge.

But the key is to see the urge for what it is, an urge...external to you.
But triggered by your genuine emotions.

So long term you need to live a life that nourishes you in a healthy way.

That is about fulfilment from positive activities and a realistic approach.

But when the urge strikes, you do need a tactical plan.

Try walking, reading, calling a friend etc.

Or mindfulness.

www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/beyond-self-destructive-behavior/201601/mindfulness-in-the-treatment-self-destructive-behavior
Last Edit: 04 Aug 2019 02:32 by ColinColin.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 02 Aug 2019 23:04 #342665

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Thank you Colin Colin!! That is a great article, I am going to try that.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 14 Aug 2019 04:54 #342845

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#Day15

TYH! It's amazing how different the urges are when you are a few days away. Right now, I have to shake the constant shmiras aynayim and Hirhurim that I am just being super lazy about. I am very happy to be at 15 days and climbing again. I also think I am in a good place (no stumbling blocks) to be able to maintain a bit longer sobriety.

Good day to all  

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 21 Aug 2019 04:42 #342993

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#Day22

Please Hashem give me strength to stay strong another day!

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 21 Aug 2019 21:32 #343024

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Wow! Keep it up!
In the place where ba’alei teshuva stand, even pure tzaddikim who never sinned cannot stand. (Rabbi Avohu, Brachos 34b)

Best way to break free: https://guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Try it and see!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 22 Aug 2019 00:13 #343026

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stillgoing wrote on 31 Jul 2019 21:57:

Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:34:
Also, I got a filter B''h to help with the fight, but then another avenue just came up that I will struggle with. I promised if I look then I will lose $50.

I've spent so much money threatening myself. Actually I probably didn't loose that much since I didn't always have the guts to pay up...

good luck on the new challenge. My personal moto that I (TRY!!!) to keep is, keep on going & keep on trying, but don't keep on doing the same old thing and hoping for different results.

true ,but sometimes if the old thing is a good thing it sometimes takes time,and dont be so quick to discard it,
someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area, and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!
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Last Edit: 22 Aug 2019 00:18 by sleepy.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 22 Aug 2019 15:07 #343032

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sleepy wrote on 22 Aug 2019 00:13:

stillgoing wrote on 31 Jul 2019 21:57:

Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:34:
Also, I got a filter B''h to help with the fight, but then another avenue just came up that I will struggle with. I promised if I look then I will lose $50.

stillgoing wrote:
I've spent so much money threatening myself. Actually I probably didn't loose that much since I didn't always have the guts to pay up...

good luck on the new challenge. My personal moto that I (TRY!!!) to keep is, keep on going & keep on trying, but don't keep on doing the same old thing and hoping for different results.

sleepy wrote:
true ,but sometimes if the old thing is a good thing it sometimes takes time,and dont be so quick to discard it,
someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area, and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!


 and sleepy wrote some more:
i forgot to  mention the main point,   
" someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area,"and with a certain method "and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!
For an explanation on my choice of username and avatar see my first post
Last Edit: 22 Aug 2019 15:13 by sleepy.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 25 Aug 2019 21:43 #343098

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sleepy wrote on 22 Aug 2019 15:07:

sleepy wrote on 22 Aug 2019 00:13:

stillgoing wrote on 31 Jul 2019 21:57:

Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:34:
Also, I got a filter B''h to help with the fight, but then another avenue just came up that I will struggle with. I promised if I look then I will lose $50.

stillgoing wrote:
I've spent so much money threatening myself. Actually I probably didn't loose that much since I didn't always have the guts to pay up...

good luck on the new challenge. My personal moto that I (TRY!!!) to keep is, keep on going & keep on trying, but don't keep on doing the same old thing and hoping for different results.

sleepy wrote:
true ,but sometimes if the old thing is a good thing it sometimes takes time,and dont be so quick to discard it,
someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area, and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!


 and sleepy wrote some more:
i forgot to  mention the main point,   
" someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area,"and with a certain method "and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!

Definitely. I fully agree. Don't be so quick to discard it. But don't be so blind to keep on reusing the tissue long after it's full of holes either..
BIG SHOT!
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STORY TIME :)

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 26 Aug 2019 03:09 #343107

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 26 Aug 2019 20:27 #343122

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stillgoing wrote on 25 Aug 2019 21:43:

sleepy wrote on 22 Aug 2019 15:07:

sleepy wrote on 22 Aug 2019 00:13:

stillgoing wrote on 31 Jul 2019 21:57:

Realestatemogul wrote on 30 Jul 2019 04:34:
Also, I got a filter B''h to help with the fight, but then another avenue just came up that I will struggle with. I promised if I look then I will lose $50.

stillgoing wrote:
I've spent so much money threatening myself. Actually I probably didn't loose that much since I didn't always have the guts to pay up...

good luck on the new challenge. My personal moto that I (TRY!!!) to keep is, keep on going & keep on trying, but don't keep on doing the same old thing and hoping for different results.

sleepy wrote:
true ,but sometimes if the old thing is a good thing it sometimes takes time,and dont be so quick to discard it,
someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area, and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!


 and sleepy wrote some more:
i forgot to  mention the main point,   
" someone was advised by their Rebbe to do something to improve in a certain area,"and with a certain method "and the talmid said that hes taking the advice ,but he sees that hes getting worse as time goes by. eventually he did succeed,big time!

Definitely. I fully agree. Don't be so quick to discard it. But don't be so blind to keep on reusing the tissue long after it's full of holes either..

i agree, even if its a holey issue
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