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Yaakov's Ladder
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 04 May 2015 21:05 #253854

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I actually think your's is also an eagle, my mistake.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 04 May 2015 21:53 #253866

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cordnoy wrote:
Pidaini wrote:
Sometimes it's easier when you've just off, you really believe that you're not so familiar with this journey, you're new to the winds, to the heights, to the traffic control, to the basic differences of driving downstairs and driving on high....

When you've been soaring a while, you some times feel like you're a pro, you can take risks, you don't need to pay attention the whole time, you know what to expect, and that can get your wing clipped, and you can start stalling..

Anyway, I'm in a HORRIFIC mood, second day running.

I feel like a complete failure in everything that means something to me, being a husband, a father, a servant of Hashem (at least that's what I tell myself, I'm not sure I really care about that), and a GYE member

Oh boy it's dark!!

Gonna go restart my day, one hour at a time now......


Mega dittos.


For both of you, I'm just gonna say something that is very selfish so excuse me please.

I don't know if this is appropriate but this story once gave me strength on a bad period of my life when I did'nt do the mitzva of tefilin.
A friend of mine told me this story :

"Once a student came to the Rebbe and at the end of the conversation the Rebbe asked him if he asks for others to put tefilin at university. The student answered no, that he was sorry but even himself didn't put tefilin. The Rebbe just told him "is that because you do not put them that others can't put them as well ?""

I'm sorry for this but it was my way to tell you guys that we need you there.
I know it's very easy for me to tell you that as I'm young, not married, in my parents house, I don't have any particular stress factors and no responsibilities and it is surely a thousand times harder for you to post or to face downs; but you have children here waiting for your words of Kedusha as it is said in Guemara that there is physical children and spiritual ones..!


Please don't let you down by the Y'H !
Last Edit: 04 May 2015 21:55 by Palti-Yossef.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 05 May 2015 03:42 #253893

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Thank you so much y'all!!

Palti, thank you!!

BH, the second yesterday was much better than the first!!

I am trying, more than ever, to really get myself a life, some direction of where I should be looking towards. It' not necessarily fun, and it involves some decision making, which I absolutely HATE, but it is rewarding.

As Rabbi Dr. AJ said on a call "a diabetic has to have a life besides for keeping control of his sugar intake, an addict also has to have a life besides for staying sober".

It's a very important point, and should be a game changer for me.
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 05 May 2015 16:16 #253944

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You are doing great yankel
And now that you have decided on your own, you won't get insulted if i tell you:
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
Last Edit: 05 May 2015 16:16 by unanumun.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 06 May 2015 12:42 #254022

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Same thing in the blue ocean as in the blue sky. Like my avatar is a fish in the ... Darn, it sounded a lot funnier when it was in my mind.

Thanks for being real.

Your story about the wedding album is so LET GO AND LET GOD. Thanks for that.
Last Edit: 06 May 2015 12:53 by yehoshua.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 08 May 2015 11:08 #254170

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Haven't posted in a while....back to close to 50 new replies.

Yesterday was Lag-Ba'omer, very nice, but extremely tiring.

Amazingly, with Hashem's help, I did not fall even though it is a perfect day for that! It's very spiritual (trigger number one), no set schedule (trigger number 2), the way back was terrible, hot and the driver was slow (trigger number 3), wife wasn't home when I got back from meron (trigger number 4).

Don't have much time now, although I would love to post some stuff.

Maybe later.
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 10 May 2015 04:00 #254206

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Being a "senior" member here does have it's shortcomings.

I am having a hard time being honest on the forum. Sharing past experiences is one thing, but writing about the present, it's more difficult than I remember, but that might be because I never really did it.....

Anyway, while I was posting away on Friday, I was actually very tempted to get some porn, but I didn't post or write or tell anyone about it. As to be expected, I started the process, but even before I got anything, I had already masturbated....haven't done that in a long time, masturbation without porn.

Reminds me of a good old friend.....5 to da p 2 to the m

I also haven't gotten to know the "new" oilam very well. Before the "chat-change", chatting is how I used to get to know guys, to share and with each other things that we wouldn't really write publicly, but right now, the chat experience is a bit too annoying. It seems that there might be a revival of the plain old chat, that's very exciting. WOOHOOOOO!!!

Heading in to another indecisive day, but one decision is clear...."Slip today? No way! Fall today? No way, Jose'!"

One day at a time, one decision at a time!!
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 12 May 2015 22:46 #254520

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Hi senior!
You still around?
We need to hear from you.
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 13 May 2015 08:17 #254551

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Thanks man!!

I'm still around.

Still fumbling around on my end.

That Sunday day went fabulously well. Was an extremely productive day. But came evening, late evening, and I let loose in a way that I haven't in quite a while. It was an all night-er!! Well...not ALL night, but most of it.

Since then, I have made up, and started, talking daily to an old friend from GYE. It was one of the things that I did when I was doing well, but it stopped when he had to start travelling abroad, but now he's back.

More to come on that.

Thanks stillgoing for the check-in! As I wrote before, I'm not completely comfortable and therefore not as enthusiastic as I used to be on GYE, but getting the notification in my email was really exciting!!

Thanks a lot!!
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 13 May 2015 15:56 #254582

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Since then, I have ... started .. talking daily to an old friend from GYE. It was one of the things that I did when I was doing well, but it stopped when he had to start travelling...


That reminds me of a quote that I saw on seniors signature
"Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" - Dov
Good Luck
SG (The guy with the eagle, not the falcon)
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 22 Jun 2015 19:22 #257388

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Hello!

I got a heads up today that the chat has been reverted back to the more user-friendly version, and I must say that I got quite excited.

It's been very rough here, and regarding GYE, well I just don't feel that I know anyone, and the way that I got to know people last time 'round was through the chat, but the way they had changed it was too annoying for me....

But I really do plan on starting to get the new oilam here and by doinng so, helping myself.

See y'all!!!
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Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 22 Jun 2015 21:12 #257408

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Welcome back!!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

And every day that you want to waste, that you want to waste, you can
And every day that you want to wake up, that you want to wake, you can
And every day that you want to change, that you want to change, yeah
I'll help you see it through...

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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 22 Jun 2015 23:14 #257418

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What's up?
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--"To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing." Mark Twain
--"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking (or lusting), you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic (or sexaholic)." AA Big Book P. 45. Parenthesis added.
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 23 Jun 2015 02:44 #257434

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Hurray! Welcome back.
My bird was getting lonely.
BIG SHOT!
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STORY TIME :)

Dr. Seuss - You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 23 Jun 2015 16:07 #257495

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עוד יעקב חי!
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
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The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
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