Kunena Site Syndication https://guardyoureyes.com Sun, 26 Jan 2020 17:41:37 +0000 Kunena 1.6 https://guardyoureyes.com/components/com_kunena/template/default/images/icons/rss.png https://guardyoureyes.com/ en-gb https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346751-denial-is-not-a-river-in-Egypt#346751 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346751-denial-is-not-a-river-in-Egypt#346751      Everywhere one looks we are bombarded mentally, emotionally , physically stimulative with smutt and nivel anyim ( porn). When I was growing up decades ago the tolerance was so much stricter; nowadays regarding modesty and hidden societal agendas it is impossible to  not fear encountering the Satan every and anywhere.  The tragic reality it is ubiquitous, insidious and desensitizing to healthy functioning with a shemiras aniyim lifestyle.
   I apologize for the wordiness, but my heart just cries out from the past ,long ongoing downward spiraling and sins against my neshama and Hashem.
   The thing that has saved me and continues empowering me is being honest about the denial of so many: bad choices of selfishness , appreciation  of my blessings, getting older and  Hashem's delayed payment system.    Teshuva only works WHENEVER we choose to do it if we become proactive against relapse. Shemiras Aniyim and begging for help from Hashem is a synergy for confronting this problem. We know all about addictive behavior and the more we do the more we empower,reinforce and set more stimuli to get the dopamine release that our disease effects ( the ahh feeling ).  So we need more and harder more intense stimuli to achieve a previous satisfaction.
    Long story short, its a choice. We live in denial that Hashem isn't watching, our souls become darker and desenstized to holiness and cannot become illuminated as the forces we create are nutured from our own actions.  There is an accounting and an accountant awaiting us when we MUST leave this world of denial. 
    I hope this will help to instill hope and remove desperation. The way is one hour ,one day , one test at a time....... If you are reading this than Hahsem still loves and hope for you to return and do teshuva. IT IS NOT TOO LATE.  Choose your gift of vision and time wisely.  May you find the the renewed hope and strength to  give away what you will acquire and  know there is always hope.............]]> What Works for Me Thu, 16 Jan 2020 16:46:41 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346751-denial-is-not-a-river-in-Egypt#346751 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346610-What-DOESNT-work-for-me#346610 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346610-What-DOESNT-work-for-me#346610
Imagine you die, and at your funeral they say. "Hakol hevel lived a wonderful life, and his favorite and most cherished thing in life was when he could escape to the bathroom and watch porn, so let's all watch his favorite porn scene in his honor"

While it's a vivid description of a legacy I DON'T want to leave behind. And I have thought this thought before, it wont stop me when I am lusting.

Be a student of you find out what works for YOU. Just because it works for someone else, doesn't mean the exact method will work for you. And don't be discouraged it didn't work for you. You just may need to tweak it for your personality.]]> What Works for Me Fri, 10 Jan 2020 02:45:05 +0000 https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/346610-What-DOESNT-work-for-me#346610