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Re: New member slipped 10 Mar 2010 14:19 #57334

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Levi613 wrote on 10 Mar 2010 11:05:

BS"D

To whomever it may concern,

There it is, after eight clean days I had a terrible fall. I try to just get over it and go weiter. Nisht pashut. I feel like a rag, like a nobody. That what you'll say is all true. The Yetser Horah now tries to make me depressed. What can I do?
Well, I am probably longing for some more chizuk. Don't tell me that it is not that bad, because I know it is.
Just I have to have the right feeling for re-starting.
I surely and strongly thank everybody for your tremendous support.

Levi613


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Re: New member 10 Mar 2010 14:27 #57338

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I fell into the barrel,
and i got pickled...

If you don't jump back up,
you're gonna get TICKLED!

That threat ALWAYS works with my kids, cuz I'm a GREAT tickler. And they like to breathe....

Levi, don't wait for the feeling, just jump back on the wagon. SHOW HASHEM YOU MEAN BUSINESS.

Show Him what your REAL ratzon is, and that the fall was a glitch in your aliya b'ruchniyos. USE the fall as a springboard to RENEW your commitment, and you'll TURN THE FALL INTO A MERIT!!

Then take each day at a time. You CAN do this!
No one is so small that he can not give help, and no one is so big that he doesn't need it.

Kol HaOlam Kulo, Gesher Tzar Meod, V'HaIkkar: Lo L'Pacheid Klal.
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Re: New member 10 Mar 2010 17:13 #57379

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When we say "feel shmell," no one is saying that a fall is good, or that it's not terrible - what we're saying is that right now, in order to grow and do the right thing, you have to move forward, and forget about the fall for now.

You're Levi613 - you can get up and move forward, and be clean! You had 8 glorious days of being clean, and that in itself is beautiful!

Now, how can you use this fall? What did you learn? What can you do differently in the future so that you can prevent yourself from falling again?

Please get up - even if you don't feel like it, we can't lie on the floor forever. Get up and move forward - and you KNOW that you'll feel happier about it!
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Re: New member 16 Mar 2010 20:34 #58458

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How are you doing, Levi613?
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Re: New member 25 Mar 2010 15:14 #59617

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BS"D


Dear Everybody,

What can I tell you, try to juggle my responsibilities as father and good husband these weeks. And also learn in the afternoon and evening BS"D. So when I come home I am so tired, I fall asleep almost instantaniously. It helps good against the addiction. Just too tired to go sit behind the monster at night. Chasdei Hashem.
But I also feel more and more, as I gain more clean days, that I am more bSimcha and more content over the whole. I had a slip, now I am again up to six days (which for me is an accomplishment).
I have a Kolleljungerman, who is helping me with the problem. I learn IY"H every week with him Lev Eliyahu. He became very upset with me after my last slip. Since then this is also kind of holding me back. I don't want to go through dissapointing him again.

Davven for me....
Levi613
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Re: New member 25 Mar 2010 16:43 #59626

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Glad to hear that you're keeping busy with good things - we're always davening for you!

I'm very happy to hear that you're feeling more content - remember that you get far more pleasure from being clean than from anything else!
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Re: New member 26 Mar 2010 13:12 #59697

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Hi Levi613.  Good to see you here again.

Glad to hear you picked yourself up and are on another clean streak.

Sorry to hear about your slip.  But remember, Yosef Hatzadik had a slip--and he's the only one of the shvatim we refer to as "Hatzadik."

Keep up the good work,

  --Eye.
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Re: New member 26 Mar 2010 18:01 #59736

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Reb Levi,

just wanna wish you a Good Shabbos and a chag Kasher V'somayach.

visit my journal for a pre-pesach pickmeup!!

Stay strong, stay clean, and always remember how much Hashem loves you!!
No one is so small that he can not give help, and no one is so big that he doesn't need it.

Kol HaOlam Kulo, Gesher Tzar Meod, V'HaIkkar: Lo L'Pacheid Klal.
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