mazel tov!!

This conversation took place today between my yetzer horag (yh) and yetzer tov (yt)

Yt: wow! Wow!
Yh: what's the wow?
Yt: what do you mean? I just reached 90 days clean today on first try!
Yh: so what? you still had these lusting thoughts from time to time..
Yt: well that wasn't intentional
Yh: but your only clean based on gye's  terminology, you still subconsciously look at woman and fantasize
Yt: so what? I didn't act out for 90 days and our action is what we can control, we can't have complete and constant control over our thoughts
Yh: so many guys reached 90 days and still fell, so what are you celebrating?
Yt: tommorow is the future I'm just focusing on the present!
Yh: I still haven't given up on you
Yt: neither have i
Yh: I'll put more effort to get you to fall
Yt: and I'm counter attacking and putting much more emphasis to stay clean.
Yt: just the fact that I'm clean for 90 days consecutively, shows me that I can survive without acting out.
Yt: I'm going to tell everyone that they too can defeat you
Y"h: oh man! He's actually winning me
Y"t: great! Hopefully moshiach comes right away and hashem will shecht you finnaly so we wouldn't have to constantly fight you!

For all those that haven't read my whole thread, I'm a 22 year old single Bochur, non addict and bh just reached 90 days on first try, one day before Rh! Definitely will have a totally different Rh like never before bh!

What keeps me going is, 
1) hashem helping me out! (Miracoulsy found gye just over 3 months ago)
2)the huge desire to get rid and to put an end to this after all these years
3) the 90 day challenge, iyh my next goal is to reach 200 days clean (thanks to the advice from hhm)
4) seeing that so many normal people have this struggle and I'm not a low life for having this issue
5) people's inspiration and talking to people

Wishing all of you a sweet clean and happy year!!

I'm not the first to do so, our great sages did, that's the reason why during mincha on Yom Kippur (highlight of Yom Kippur) we read the parsha of עריות because we always have to remember about these things even when we're so called flying high.

Hi Shnitzel and kugel,
I'm an 18 year old bochur, ive been struggling since I was 16.
I only came to the realization that I have an issue around a half year ago.

Until a half year ago i used to act out at least once sometimes twice a day. It became רגיל to the point where I didn't see anything wrong with what I was doing.

Only around a half year ago I started taking action to try and regain control of my life.

I joined GYE last week. Until then I've been trying to push myself to stay clean for as long as possible. But I didn't have any of the motivational tools that GYE provides.

My longest streak was 15 days consecutively (but I came close to my record multiple times, once it was 13 days, or 11).

The truth is, I've come across GYE in the past, but i felt that it's only for real addicts, and that "if I really want to, I could stop".

After Yom Kippur though, I decided enough is enough. I need help, and GYE is that resource.

Since I joined GYE, I've had less of a cheishek to act out. I don't know how long it will last me, but im hoping for the best!

May we all be zoche to much סיעתא דשמיא to prevail in this fight!

Hatzlacha to all!

Anonymous1051 wrote on 23 Sep 2018 05:55:

Welcome,

It should be with Hatzlocha.

How about starting your own thread and keeping us posted on your journey?