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Re: just suscribed 26 Mar 2017 10:20 #309170

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Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 08:33 #309349

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when it says in shulchan aruch that one can have sex to be matzil maveirah what does that constitute
does it mean if  you feel lust focus it on your wife or if you feel a specific y"h use your wife instead
or other options?

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Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 09:28 #309351

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tzomah wrote on 27 Mar 2017 08:33:
when it says in shulchan aruch that one can have sex to be matzil maveirah what does that constitute
does it mean if  you feel lust focus it on your wife or if you feel a specific y"h use your wife instead
or other options?

You will get two different answers here from the forum members.
The addicts response will not be the same as those fighting the yetzer hora.
Talking personally, (addict) - sex with my wife never stopped me from acting out.
And 'using' my wife stopped me from having an intimate sexual relationship with her.
However, focusing my lust on my wife did help me to get out of constant porn addiction, but she wasn't in the room so not sure if that's what was meant. I don't think the mechaber was talking to sex addicts.

Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 11:18 #309355

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tzomah wrote on 27 Mar 2017 08:33:
when it says in shulchan aruch that one can have sex to be matzil maveirah what does that constitute
does it mean if  you feel lust focus it on your wife or if you feel a specific y"h use your wife instead
or other options?

The simple meaning, i think, is if one was exposed to a very triggering matzav (whatever that may be for him), and is afraid he will not be able to control himself, one should have sex with their wife. However that does not mean one should use his wife as a masturbating tool. The sex should be healthy giving and intimate. If one finds themselves not doing that, they should be speaking to a rov/therapist familiar with sexual addiction on how to proceed. Many of us (addicts and non addicts alike) were advised to practice celibacy for a certain period of time as part of our showing ourselves we could be in control, and to retrain how we treat our wives. How far one goes with this has a lot to do with if he is fighting the yetzer hora or an illness/addiction. Obviously these are matters we should not pasken by ourselves and should stick to shulchan aruch unless an appropriate authority tells us specifically otherwise.
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Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 11:36 #309356

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 i don't mean a masturbating tool and she is enjoying it and it is intimate but at the same time you can feel your own lust and maybe even do things you would not have done had you not had this problem what  is that and is it even possible ?
what does celibacy mean?

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Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 11:55 #309357

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tzomah wrote on 27 Mar 2017 11:36:
 i don't mean a masturbating tool and she is enjoying it and it is intimate but at the same time you can feel your own lust and maybe even do things you would not have done had you not had this problem what  is that and is it even possible ?
what does celibacy mean?

My wife doesnt enjoy it if I am lusting.
She knows its not about her, its about me.

Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 14:03 #309371

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tzomah wrote on 27 Mar 2017 11:36:
 i don't mean a masturbating tool and she is enjoying it and it is intimate but at the same time you can feel your own lust and maybe even do things you would not have done had you not had this problem what  is that and is it even possible ?
what does celibacy mean?

Celibacy means refraining from actual sexual relations. Intimacy is still happening, just not the actual act.

Sounds like your lust is not on too high of a level, anf if that's the case, a little ta'avah is normal. Or could be you are in denial.......... If that's the case, your wife may feel she is being used.
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Re: just suscribed 27 Mar 2017 18:25 #309391

I agree with HHM that it sounds like your' lust aint to high if I am wrong please ignore me...
Therefore as a non addict GS/HHM really said it all a little tiavah triggered by something and then being with the wife FOR THE WIFE is what chazal mean (coming from a rebbe of mine and a sefer בינין הבית) and for me it helps (B"H I have a wife who understands and wants to help but I still need to be careful as the addicts can explain and did)

Great job trying to understand this keep the open mindedness and you will get far
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Re: just suscribed 28 Mar 2017 08:55 #309462

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ok so maybe lust is a strong word but i have done and said things i saw in porn or things i fantasized about (although for sure got better since i started this) 
what is that does matzil maveirah kick in or am i just sick?
i for sure feel lots of guilt especially as she learnt to talk like me witch just adds to my guilt 
i also feel i can only start owning up to this now that i started getting clean

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Tzomah, have you listened to simcha feuerman's chosson shiurim on the website? If not, you may find your answers there.
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Re: just suscribed 28 Mar 2017 16:00 #309503

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i took your advice from a different post i'm in the middle of shiur 5 

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Re: just suscribed 31 Mar 2017 08:54 #309773

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b'h doing great and gut shabbos all 
any ideas for activities that boost adrenaline and a feeling of adventure?

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Re: just suscribed 31 Mar 2017 12:30 #309787

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Hike in the rain
My road to 90 days, all with God's help.             What brought me here.90 days with Areivim

Made it 259 days from 01/28/17-10/15/17 without mz"l. At day 90, I started to go for all aspects of שמירת עניים\הברית. At day 168 I fell with שמירת עניים & restarted the count. On approximately November 4 2017, with the support of a fellow GYE brother (daily text messages/phone calls), I restarted. This round I'm working on שמירת הברית as well as שמירת עניים.

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tzomah wrote on 24 Mar 2017 09:39:
b'h i am feeling great and relaxed
because of that the situation at home is much better my wife is much happier and more into 
relations and is finally starting to get something real out of it (i think/i hope) after 6 years of marriage
i think my mindset is starting to shift that i really have to work on myself and stop wishing everyone else to change 
btw i started doing exercise and stretches its really helping knock out cravings so thanx all for that advice

That's awesome! Cherish (your wife and) this time where you're doing great. Hopefully it lasts a while. At some point life will throw a curveball (hopefully for a short time) and if you fully connect during these good times, it'll make you stronger when the going gets tough.
My road to 90 days, all with God's help.             What brought me here.90 days with Areivim

Made it 259 days from 01/28/17-10/15/17 without mz"l. At day 90, I started to go for all aspects of שמירת עניים\הברית. At day 168 I fell with שמירת עניים & restarted the count. On approximately November 4 2017, with the support of a fellow GYE brother (daily text messages/phone calls), I restarted. This round I'm working on שמירת הברית as well as שמירת עניים.

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bb0212 wrote on 31 Mar 2017 12:30:
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I second the motion.
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