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Re: My Story / Asperger 05 Jan 2016 20:56 #273446

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Sorry Shlomo I wasn't being serious

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Markz by the way I like your attitude I hope your are not always in life like this (so strong)


Unfortunately I am like this in life, often
Too blunt or sharp - however you prefer ;-)
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Re: My Story / Asperger 20 Jan 2016 18:33 #275011

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doingtshuva wrote:
pischoshelmachat wrote:
Mazel Tov MarkZ on reaching the Wall of Honour

Markz it's time to update your chart?
isn't it red by now?
Thank you guys...
I actually wasn't very interested in the 90 day thing in the first place, at least it wasn't my priority and not a tool

I believe in ODAAT, but if it's a help to anyone that I display some sorta count then I'm honored to do so
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I've been dealing with lots of stress recently which may be the cause of fleeting split second lustful moments
My trucking tools on page one are BH well in check and recently passed the 150 mile / day "Mark"er

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Re: My Story / Asperger 24 Jan 2016 20:54 #275347

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the.guard wrote:
hopeful wrote:
I don't know how much more times I can try to bounce back from a fall


If what we're doing until now isn't working, maybe it's time to try something new.

Have you considered joining our 12-Step phone groups? The TaPHSiC method? Therapy? Live Groups? There's no excuse... there is always more we can try. This is what we came down to the world. There's no giving up in this game!

I think the reason why the.one.and.only.guard says that there is no excuse is because in my extensive reading the forums, there hasn't been one instance of failure for anyone that had a little determination

All the guys that are still acting out, is due to lack of owning their part, and DOING SOMETHING to better their life, if it means posting on the forums, or SA meetings, or a partner, or Therapy, or lots more...
(For some of us, replace "or", with "and")

My personal tools are not the most powerful, and although I'm very shy, nevertheless if what I am doing wasnt helping me and I had to open up to a real person, I'd do it today, rather than living a dishonest religious life

All it takes is 'naaseh' and you'll 'hear' your engines fire away on the Heilige Trucking highway
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Re: My Story / Asperger 24 Jan 2016 21:20 #275350

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markz wrote:
the.guard wrote:
hopeful wrote:
I don't know how much more times I can try to bounce back from a fall


If what we're doing until now isn't working, maybe it's time to try something new.

Have you considered joining our 12-Step phone groups? The TaPHSiC method? Therapy? Live Groups? There's no excuse... there is always more we can try. This is what we came down to the world. There's no giving up in this game!

I think the reason why the.one.and.only.guard says that there is no excuse is because in my extensive reading the forums, there hasn't been one instance of failure for anyone that had a little determination

All the guys that are still acting out, is due to lack of owning their part, and DOING SOMETHING to better their life, if it means posting on the forums, or SA meetings, or a partner, or Therapy, or lots more...
(For some of us, replace "or", with "and")

My personal tools are not the most powerful, and although I'm very shy, nevertheless if what I am doing wasnt helping me and I had to open up to a real person, I'd do it today, rather than living a dishonest religious life

All it takes is 'naaseh' and you'll 'hear' your engines fire away on the Heilige Trucking highway


Markz, if I may embarrass you with a compliment or two, first, I've personally found your tools and your whole approach very helpful.

Second, you say you're shy and not a communicator, but I find that you are one of the most upbeat and helpful people on the forums.

Re: My Story / Asperger 25 Jan 2016 01:15 #275372

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Workingguy wrote:
markz wrote:
the.guard wrote:
hopeful wrote:
I don't know how much more times I can try to bounce back from a fall


If what we're doing until now isn't working, maybe it's time to try something new.

Have you considered joining our 12-Step phone groups? The TaPHSiC method? Therapy? Live Groups? There's no excuse... there is always more we can try. This is what we came down to the world. There's no giving up in this game!

I think the reason why the.one.and.only.guard says that there is no excuse is because in my extensive reading the forums, there hasn't been one instance of failure for anyone that had a little determination

All the guys that are still acting out, is due to lack of owning their part, and DOING SOMETHING to better their life, if it means posting on the forums, or SA meetings, or a partner, or Therapy, or lots more...
(For some of us, replace "or", with "and")

My personal tools are not the most powerful, and although I'm very shy, nevertheless if what I am doing wasnt helping me and I had to open up to a real person, I'd do it today, rather than living a dishonest religious life

All it takes is 'naaseh' and you'll 'hear' your engines fire away on the Heilige Trucking highway


Markz, if I may embarrass you with a compliment or two, first, I've personally found your tools and your whole approach very helpful.

Second, you say you're shy and not a communicator, but I find that you are one of the most upbeat and helpful people on the forums.



You have my vote as well


Im still cracking up on the roach spray post
(What the heck IS in there )

Re: My Story / Asperger 27 Jan 2016 19:23 #275658

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This week we got a new computer at home

How things have changed!!!

I rely on CovenantEyes reporting system

Previously when I'd get a new device I would first inaugurate it with all filth possible, and then, a day later when I had enough "fun", I'd delete the history, install CE and it was back kosher. And my partner thinks I'm kosher, and so do I! hah!

But on my gye truck I learnt things are different!

I stopped objectifying things (See "The Women Object" in "Free Towing" below)

Today, I see my computer just as a regular human being. It has moods, can get sick, viruses... It can be slow, or crash like we all do... I don't sexualize it anymore ;-)

So right away without much ado I installed CE, although as mentioned previously my other tools are what are keeping me in check, and only have CE as a backup
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Re: My Story / Asperger 27 Jan 2016 20:04 #275662

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markz wrote:
Today, I see my computer just as a regular human being. It has moods, can get sick, viruses... It can be slow, or crash like we all do... I don't sexualize it anymore ;-)

Somehow, it gets "sick" with viruses less often if we don't use it for porn...
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Re: My Story / Asperger 27 Jan 2016 20:08 #275663

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markz wrote:
This week we got a new computer at home

How things have changed!!!

I rely on CovenantEyes reporting system

Previously when I'd get a new device I would first inaugurate it with all filth possible, and then, a day later when I had enough "fun", I'd delete the history, install CE and it was back kosher. And my partner thinks I'm kosher, and so do I! hah!

But on my gye truck I learnt things are different!

I stopped objectifying things (See "The Women Object" in "Free Towing" below)

Today, I see my computer just as a regular human being. It has moods, can get sick, viruses... It can be slow, or crash like we all do... I don't sexualize it anymore ;-)

So right away without much ado I installed CE, although as mentioned previously my other tools are what are keeping me in check, and only have CE as a backup


Very nice.

I view humans as computers. I turn them on, they turn me on. I view them through a window. I have favorites. I use tools. When they are tired and slow, I need to refresh them. Sometimes I think an add-on would be beneficial. They may get heated up when used a lot. There is a choice to run, however. But like husband and wife, they cannot function alone.
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Re: My Story / Asperger 28 Jan 2016 01:13 #275737

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Yasher Koach on your milestone
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Re: My Story / Asperger 28 Jan 2016 01:20 #275741

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Good stuff,

With gs help this new machine should be nichnas bshalom vyotze bshalom, of course only when it is zakein usva yamim.

And if it does lo aleinu go early, it should be al kiddush hashem, or at least in service of country.

Re: My Story / Asperger 22 Feb 2016 02:52 #278676

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With Gd by my side Im still sober, and NOT dry drunk either
Guys - Things haven't changed much since page 1, and nor has your support, which I appreciate to no end!

2000 posts!
Wow!
Maybe it would be advisable to retire now peacefully
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On this auspicious occassion, I am accepting on myself bln to upgrade my eye 'guard' for the next month - not to google search images, even though I keep the 1 second rule, and even though my good YH says I should continue for the sake of GYE, the wise sage that he is...

We gotta just
Keep On Trucking
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Re: My Story / Asperger 02 Mar 2016 14:46 #279932

Mazel Tov on reaching 90. You are a true inspiration.

Re: My Story / Asperger 09 Mar 2016 16:02 #280825

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Workingguy wrote:

markz wrote:
I take offense that you consider me not a real person, you're seriously compelling me to dispel any notions and come onto your call tomorrow
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I still need another few days / weeks, and I'm concerned the most that I'm not ready for the group conversation even if I feel like some of you guys are like my brother. I'm almost ready to pickup the phone and call you or Yesod personally...


 



Hey! Cordnoy is one of the Roshei Yeshiva, but how did Yesod get the zechus for a possible phone call from one of the gedolei haforum? (Yesod, I'm jealous but it's קנאת סופרים)


I am having a very hard time because I am being tempted more and more to pick up the phone and call a couple of you guys but since I'm a mild aspie, and concerned I'll say the wrong thing in a group setting - I have decided not to come onto the group call

Speaking OGAAT?

1guyatatime I'm gonna seriously consider - but someone needs to give me compelling reason to
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Re: My Story / Asperger 09 Mar 2016 21:49 #280871

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Don't be shy,  we all take turns making fools out of ourselves. 

If you'd like to ring a brother up,  msg me.  

Anytime pal

Re: Aspie - pls read my Nov 11 share at end of page 1 10 Mar 2016 17:25 #280969

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Yesod wrote on 12 Nov 2015 19:08:
Mark have you been karming me?

I get these karmas and i have no clue from who and i suspect ive been marked.


am i going to be recieving a bill from you?

You know, i've actually thought about opening a false account just to up my karma. Pretty pathetic, no?  But i decieded that i did'nt need to add con-artist (which i'm pretty good at - if not for that annoying conscience) to my list of addictions.
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