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Re: Back again for another try 08 Jul 2021 02:29 #370602

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I've been back at work and facing some changes and worries. I haven't watched porn or masturbated but time-wasting has been creeping back in. I want to think of a plan for when I want to start browsing the internet at work. Maybe take a walk instead.

Re: Back again for another try 09 Jul 2021 00:20 #370636

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Still some time wasting but I was more focused at work today, BH.

Re: Back again for another try 15 Jul 2021 01:30 #370875

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These past few days I've been having a big struggle with time wasting reading political stuff at work. I also missed morning minyan twice, one time I stayed in bed and the other time I was pacing and thinking. With porn and masturbation you can tell what actions are forbidden and not do them, but when the taiva is just to think about something, and it's not a forbidden topic except that it's time wasting, it's so easy to slide into it. It's like I just have to figure out the solutions right now, plus I'm procrastinating from all the things I should do. Still no porn or masturbation though, thank G-d. And after Tisha B'Av with G-d's help I can have seventy days. Plus that's the same time last year I started a pretty good run until the end of Tishrei. So I'm hopeful about that part.

Re: Back again for another try 16 Jul 2021 00:53 #370931

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I was far from perfect but I did better at work today, BH. However I noticed that I am starting to pay attention to my day count more and feel impatient to increase the number. This is not a good sign as I am generally most successful when I am thinking about holiness and staying clean and taking it one day at a time, without watching the number of days too much. When I start getting impatient staying clean can seem more like a chore instead of the great blessing that it is.

Re: Back again for another try 19 Jul 2021 21:41 #371038

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I've been very focused today without wasting time on the internet. Since time wasting is such a big challenge for me, I'm planning to spend less time on here too, since that is part of spending time on the internet. However, I'll still come here if I'm thinking about wasting my time with something worse.

Re: Back again for another try 22 Jul 2021 11:20 #371121

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Monday and Tuesday after Tisha B'Av were very good in terms of time wasting but yesterday my time wasting started to creep back up. I'm having a hard time fighting this aspect.

Re: Back again for another try 28 Jul 2021 01:24 #371257

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My time wasting has been pretty limited these past few days and still not porn or masturbation. However, today I had more lust than normal. I had a taiva to visit a particular audio site (not the same one that was giving me trouble earlier), and then I saw some iffy pictures that turned me on. I have to watch out! Baruch HaShem, I feel the drive to stay clean again. None of that is really what I want. I hope and pray that I can keep this up.
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