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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 16 Mar 2021 18:05 #365531

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eyes wrote on 16 Mar 2021 17:45:
no i acted like an animal.
almost lost 600+ days
just to show, we always have to be on the radar

Yes! That's such an important fact...
אל תאמין בעצמך עד יום מותך שהרי יוחנן כ"ג שמש בכהונה גדולה שמנים שנה ולבסוף נעשה צדוקי
Do not be sure of yourself until the day you die, as Yoḥanan the High Priest served in the High Priesthood for eighty years and ultimately became a Sadducee.
A vort from R' Moshe of Kobrin is that after 80 years נעשה צדוקי - he felt himself to be a tzaddik. The implication (in view also of the other teachings on that page) seems to be that this led him to pride and then to going wrong.
"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 19 Mar 2021 16:30 #365723

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Hi! I wish have a partner to talk and be in touch! The last two days were difficult

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 19 Mar 2021 16:35 #365724

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Shaul5781 wrote on 19 Mar 2021 16:30:
Hi! I wish have a partner to talk and be in touch! The last two days were difficult

Hi
Did you try the partner program?
guardyoureyes.com/tools/partner-program 
For now, we're all your partner... 
Keep strong and have a great shabbos! 
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 19 Mar 2021 16:39 #365725

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Yes, i tried it... but i couldn’t find a partner. 

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 19 Mar 2021 17:12 #365727

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I'm happy to be in touch with you and talk to you and listen, and try to help. Feel free to reach out. my email is 360gye@gmail.com

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 28 Jun 2021 20:06 #370293

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The internet on my phone is blocked but I need internet for work so I use my wife's laptop for work. She has covenent eyes on there. The thing I dont think it reports info from incognito tabs. 
I only go on GYE on incognito because my wife doesn't know yet that I have an issue. 
Right now I'm struggling majorly the last few hours to do something that would've been unthinkable and watch porn on my wife's computer on an incognito tab. And once I do I know it's going to become a place for me to watch whatever I want. 
So even if I tell her to block incognito as well then I'm not going to be able to go on this website without her finding out, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for her to find out yet... 
I NEED HELP NOW!  

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 28 Jun 2021 20:30 #370295

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bitachon22 wrote on 28 Jun 2021 20:06:
The internet on my phone is blocked but I need internet for work so I use my wife's laptop for work. She has covenent eyes on there. The thing I dont think it reports info from incognito tabs. 
I only go on GYE on incognito because my wife doesn't know yet that I have an issue. 
Right now I'm struggling majorly the last few hours to do something that would've been unthinkable and watch porn on my wife's computer on an incognito tab. And once I do I know it's going to become a place for me to watch whatever I want. 
So even if I tell her to block incognito as well then I'm not going to be able to go on this website without her finding out, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for her to find out yet... 
I NEED HELP NOW!  

Speak to @Lionking, he is the filter expert here on GYE.
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 28 Jun 2021 20:32 #370296

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Does Covenant Eyes monitor Incognito Mode/Private Browsing?

Accountability is not turned off when someone uses Private Browsing. Our technology does not rely on browsing history. On computers, our software will still take screenshots when Private Browsing is being used. On Android devices, our app will detect the use of Private Browsing and note it in the next report as Unmonitored Screen Activity. For additional details, see Does Covenant Eyes monitor Incognito Mode/Private Browsing?

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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 28 Jun 2021 20:33 #370297

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Markz answered already. Just on a different thread. See recent posts. Incognito mode will not stop your wife's Convenant Eye Partner from seeing what your doing.

Hatzlacha
edit: Markz answered on this one as well.
by the way, even on android which blocks screenshots from chrome incognito mode, most accountability software can still pick up the url you visited.
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Last Edit: 28 Jun 2021 20:36 by lionking.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 29 Jun 2021 00:28 #370309

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lionking wrote on 28 Jun 2021 20:33:
Markz answered already. Just on a different thread. See recent posts. Incognito mode will not stop your wife's Convenant Eye Partner from seeing what your doing.

Hatzlacha
edit: Markz answered on this one as well.
by the way, even on android which blocks screenshots from chrome incognito mode, most accountability software can still pick up the url you visited.

I have Truple which is like Covenant Eyes. It sends a special email that says that whatever site you visited was visited, yet screenshots can't be taken. So the person receiving the emails will know every site, including what you searched for on that site...if that was your initial search.

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 05 Jul 2021 21:23 #370514

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I just came across a post from @greenland55 in which he mentioned a filter named Pluckeye (ipluck.net/). I never heard of it before, but being that I was looking for a free filter and none of the filters I saw that were available had what I was looking for, I decided to try it out. 
While the filter does cost money, there is a sliding scale for the subscription fee as well as free options. It works entirely on the honor system as well.

Since I did not want to pay, I took a short survey instead.
The general idea of the filter is that it blocks all images and videos. You can block downloads and more, it is very customizable. What I really like was the timer - my internet shuts off between 12AM and 8AM.
There is a password option, but you don't necessarily need it. Instead, the filter is set up with a delay and any changes that you make don't take effect until the delay has passed. You set the delay time (up to 7 days) which historically has worked for me. Right now I set my delay for 2 hours, I may change it to 12.

The one downside is that it is not very user friendly or intuitive, but it seems like that is improving as well. (I had originally downloaded an old version - when I updated to the newest version, I saw many improvements to the interface.)
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 26 Sep 2021 19:03 #372681

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Hi all. This is my first post on GYE. I'm writing here because I currently am at 16 days of no הוצאת זרע לבטלה, maybe my second longest streak, and almost my longest streak, since I was a young teenager. I'm feeling a LOT of desires, though, right now, and am very worried I will fall today. In fact, I almost fell at least twice today but managed to come to GYE first and that bought me more time. The past couple of days I've been hanging on by threads. Every day has been a huge challenge but I really, really want to be clean once and for all. It feels impossible to think that I can win day after day. Thank you for your support!
As long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.

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long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.

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long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 26 Sep 2021 20:24 #372682

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Wow! I wish I would have your strength! Keep it up!

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 08 Nov 2021 19:48 #374097

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kP9a26QN wrote on 26 Sep 2021 19:03:
Hi all. This is my first post on GYE. I'm writing here because I currently am at 16 days of no הוצאת זרע לבטלה, maybe my second longest streak, and almost my longest streak, since I was a young teenager. I'm feeling a LOT of desires, though, right now, and am very worried I will fall today. In fact, I almost fell at least twice today but managed to come to GYE first and that bought me more time. The past couple of days I've been hanging on by threads. Every day has been a huge challenge but I really, really want to be clean once and for all. It feels impossible to think that I can win day after day. Thank you for your support!

Hi
How have you been doing?
Your chart seems to be showing that you're going in the right direction... Keep it up!
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Re: I'm about to FALL!! 08 Nov 2021 19:56 #374098

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hello!  Have you already read the articles published in this forum about Smart Recovery?  there are valuable techniques there that could be of great use.  you are not alone we are here for you!
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