Not being able to remove this trigger, I felt the taaveh overpowering me, I felt like giving up, and for an addict like me, drinking just a bit in the form of looking for a moment and letting my fantasy go means falling back totally. Then, I recalled what Dov (from SA) told me once. I closed my eyes for a moment, and I tried to imagine her troubles: she has to cover the rent, she has family troubles, health problems, etc., and I prayed for Hashem to grant her all her heart's wishes. At that moment, the trigger/taaveh disappeared completely and I even felt rachmones for her. Since then I use this method a lot, and it helps, b"h. |