Try Harder or Trust Harder?
  Breaking Free Chizuk #1489  
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Scared Witless? Don't Fret!

In response to a member's question to us (in issue #1487) about fierce punishments for the sin of Hotzoas Zerah Levatolo, and his expressed fear, many members sent us (and him) their reassurances.

Here are a couple of them:

Reb Yid says: "I saw that you brought a letter from somebody concerned about the terrible punishment for hoz''l. One of the things he mentions is that his tefiilos are not accepted. 

I would like to add to your response a gevaldige vort I saw from the holy Satmar Rebbe R' Yoel. It says in the posuk גם כי תרבו תפילה איננו שומע ידיכם דמים מלאו which the gemoro refers to this sin of hoz''l. Says the great Rebbe, "It is known what the Rebbe Reb Zusha said that he never saw an angel created through an avairoh of a yid that is whole - beacause even when a yid sins, r''l, he feels terribly bad and doesn't do it בשלימות and simche. Therefore, the malach that's created from it is a cripple - מחוסר אבר. With this the Rebbe teitched the possuk: ''gam ki sarbu tefilla einnenu shomeya" - only when it is "yedaichem domim melaiu," which means 'full and whole.' But if a person is broken and tries to do teshuva, then for sure Hashem will hear his prayers.

Mosmas2001 says: "What I would say is that if he is an addict (like most of us here), he isn't doing aveiros, it's a sickness; and praying to be healed is a teshuva (along with following the twelve steps) for this 'aveirah.'"

Thanks to all who took the time to participate. Keep your shares coming!


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Am I being punished for my falls with all the trouble in my life?
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Someone wrote on the forum:

Nothing is going right for me financially...I'm at my wits end... I have been davening for my addiction, and now for my life... Maybe I'm being punished for what I have done and looked at??

Dov replies:

Punished? Why would Hashem need to "punish" his kid? Being fixed up from all the damage you caused yourself - maybe - but even these cheshboinos are silly for me to get involved in, so I try not to.

All I can say is that going through what you are experiencing is so hard, and it's equally difficult for anyone in relative comfort to really relate to it. I can't give you real advice, as I feel no pain of worry like yours right now.

But as a person who has had some tough times and suffered a bit, I suggest "trusting harder" rather than "trying harder"/"davening harder". I can share with you that there are times when our "trying" is just not enough, no matter how you slice it. Perhaps we inherently just cannot really deserve to get what we want. It's gotta boil down to His Chessed: Matnas chinom.

Better ask Him for matnas chinom rather than try to deserve anything. And consider letting your ma'asim flow from ahavah: as a child to his father, the benevolent King. Let go and do (whatever you believe is) your best, just to make the King proud - because He's the Greatest. Keeping the basic mitzvos and perhaps even being machmir at times - all out of appreciation and love. After all, He does for you out of love 99.9% of the time anyway, no matter how hard we try - or fail, right?

Going this way blows away all the silly taynos of those who say that it'll bring you to stop keeping the mitzvos if you serve Hashem with a volunteer mentality. Pah-leaze. The entire sefer Chovos Halevavos is just about this point. Nedivus out of hakaras hatov. And his point isn't the hakaras hatov at all: it's the nedivus - i.e. the relationship created by the hakaras hatov (he writes this somewhere in Sha'ar Avodas hoElokim). We are commanded to do it so that we know He wants us to do it, and we do it out of love for the King. Cuz we know a secret others don't know... the King is our Tatty!! (Shhh!!)

Try this on like a shirt for a while and see what you come out with and let me know. Thanks.

PS. Times like these may be a good time to take stock of what you do have. Relationships, stuff, health, whatever, and looking at how you can appreciate it more and strengthen it because of your hard times. After all, suffering "together" is better than suffering alone - but only if we are really together.

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