Last night, I was waiting and waiting for my wife to finish getting ready for us to go out. I was ready, the babysitter was there, but some women just take a long time to get going. Finally she says, "come on, lets go already" (as if it was my fault we were late). As we'r...

I heard from someone who is sober for many years in SA, that for the first 7 years he sat in SA meetings and didn't gain anything from the groups. He was "too smart" for the program, and it didn't make its way into his heart. Finally, at wits end, he decided to just nulif...

It is incredible to look back and recall how much pain I was in not long ago. I am still in a lot of pain when I get my mind racing and dwelling on future worries or past regrets. For right now, I am just trying to focus on right now and what I am doing. It may sound od...

I just found out about this amazing website. I've been struggling with this for almost 20 years. Its such a good feeling to be able to share. I've got a streak going on now. It all started innocently with some masturbation when I was 12 years old. I didn't even realize wh...

Yesterday on my way to Shacharis, I felt VERY uncomfortable & irritable, and I knew I had to do something about this feeling or it might lead me to acting out.So I tried to call someone (1st thing in the morning is even harder than trying to find someone at 2 AM in th...

The root of our disease is self-centeredness. This leads to feelings of entitlement; "I need" and "I deserve". It also leads to resentment when we don't get what we want, and then bitterness, pain and disconnect from G-d. To start recovering, we need to begin changing ou...

Today I noticed that one of the weak links that the Yetzer Hara uses with me, is when he gives me thoughts to be frightened about. "You know, you're not going to be able to make ends meet this month" or, "Did you get everything done for the lawyer?" I live in fear mode. A...

Rabbi Pinchos Roberts brings in his book "Timeless Seasons", that the principle of hashgocho protis is what succos is all about. We remember how Hashem set up camp for us in the midbar and looked after every detail of our needs. We sit under the flimsy s'cach which repres...

I've been having UPS and DOWNS and UPS and DOWNS. I had a few days when I was really taking some lustful looks at people I shouldn't be looking at. I've been thinking about "WHY?" As Duvid Chaim always says (from the Big-Book), we're all fueled by our R.I.D--Restlessnes...

A Member of Duvid Chaim's Phone conference shares his "Excuses List" his addiction uses to FOOL HIM into believing he is still in control of his "lusting": If I am the only one awake at 1 AM, it's not hurting anyone If I fantasize, it stops me from real-life acting ou...